Forgive me for posting this here but it's personal and it's for posterity. Oddly enough a barrage of PMs came in from Josko and others involved in his latest tourney and I just happened to catch this at the very bottom of my Inbox so very nearly lost it (my mailbox is stuffed!) and very soon it will definitely be lost. You can't begin to imagine how much this lady meant to me and, I can imagine, everyone else in TOFU for whom she served so gallantly. This correspondence was just seven months ago
They were the last words we shared on CC and I don't want to lose them. Thank you for understanding - it means a lot x
Hi, friend
Sent: Sat Oct 05, 2024 6:27 pm
by Denise
I quit this tourney a while back, but then I came back to CC (very short absence) to play a few clan games for that semi-final. While I was in those games I entered the multi player esc tournament we are both in. After that, I discovered that the source of pain I had been having is pancreatic cancer. It's early, so I'm not sure what state yet but it's causing all sorts of pain and distraction in my life. There is no way for me to continue to play in that tournament. I've let Traf know. It will be all I can do to finish that esc tourny. I may decide to deadbeat but I'll stick it out for now.
I wanted you to know since I consider us good friends. My plan is to apply both holistic and chemo to beat it. The next few months will be tough, though.
I hope your life is going well.
xoxo
Valla
Re: Hi, friend
Sent: Sun Oct 20, 2024 11:09 am
by Chariot of Fire
Hello my lovely Valla,
I was touched by your PM more than you can imagine. At the time I felt it didn't warrant a cursory reply as it was too deep and I wouldn't have found words to express my feelings. Not only that but my daughter was admitted to hospital that very day and was kept in for a week having had a terrible asthma attack which became truly precarious (much better now thankfully and on a new medication as she seemed to have built-up a resistance to her salbutamol inhaler).
What can I say? Only that I pray for your recovery and that you've managed to nip this awful affliction in the bud. My brother-in-law is going through similar and I've become much more aware of how good modern treatment is nowadays having witnessed the therapy he's undergone. Please please let it work for you, you're such a beautiful soul. I don't want to imagine the pain you have to endure (I'm a hopeless case when it comes to anything or anyone suffering)

On a separate note - equally distressing when I think about it - how is your daughter? I recall, and it must be many years ago now, she had contracted Lyme disease. I'm not sure if that's something that ever goes away?
You've certainly been given a cross to bear and my heart goes out to you and your family. Please have the strength to get through it all.
And if I hadn't started crying already, your closing sentence really got me. I too consider us friends - many miles apart but very close in spirit.
Love you, always
Simon xxx
Re: Hi, friend
Sent: Mon Oct 21, 2024 12:09 pm
by Denise
I'm sorry to hear that your daughter had such a rough time of it but glad that she has recovered and that she is on a better med for her.
Thank you for your words of comfort and encouragement. It means a lot to me. My daughter has been a Godsend with her wisdom of holistic healing. She has been healing herself for years and has made great improvements. She is currently involved in a protocol which is actually a cancer protocol and which has had success in curing cancer that was supposedly incurable. Besides that, I've gone on a mostly vegan diet which she has always encouraged but I didn't think I had the will. Turns out I do, when so much is at stake. And I will, of course, use everything my oncologist suggests which I'll find out more about tomorrow, in my first appointment.
I'm sorry about what happened to TOFU. That was very unfortunate.
Love you,
Valla